I thought I had it all going well till of course, they still do exclude at times, my teammates have stepped down, when a certain rumour killed this friendship. I never fully understood what it means when they taught us back in church that "Gossip kills" and now I finally understand. I know this whole dramamama is going to make me stronger and I trust in this bigger Someone to pull me through, to put me back in place, to continue to give me strength to believe and do the right things. I know that God wants to do His works through me and I am going to do whatever He says regardless of difficulty. God is the way, the truth and the light.

I know our friendship will hold because we are not immature people. We actually know how to spell humility and we know how to differentiate a romantic relationship to a strong friendship. Wash your makeup away, I think you might have lost your humility or honesty.

I want to peel your skin and marvel at the actual thickness of it. Then peer into your mind and discover the motivation behind your actions. I want to rub away the explicit emotion splashed over your face like spilt paint clearly showing your discontent or know-it-all attitude.

Well I guess that one swallow does not make a summer. I have to keep living my life to the fullest because my youth is running out already and I want to give it up for God's work. God have been faithful in my life and it's up to me to fine-tune it now. Though shit happened, I am a happy girl today because I bought brownie from Perkafe and MJ soccer won RJ's. I luv how awesome we can initiate our school cheers despite some crap about not being able to beat the drum to do our emjay cheers because of the flu. We beat them 4-1 and got through to the semi-finals. I think they deserve it really. Go Khair, Toad, Bing! Will lailai decide to give us a holiday if they win championships?

These few weeks have been pretty exhausting. I think walking around with a sprained ankle isn't making things less tiring. Being on medication really disgusts me. No one in their right mind can tolerate Chinese medicine, the smell of it is enough to give me the worst headache man! Then I need to get an MC and burnt a hole in my pocket for a 52 bucks consultation, and some medicine to improve the nerves at my ankle. I cannot wait to get up and start running to lose fats. Also, the (RC) have been really productive these few weeks. I am glad to have them there for me.

Today, Dodo came to Emmanuel. I love Sunday services because it makes me feel refreshed even though I have to sacrifice sleep in order to make it to church on time. During yesterday's youth service, we learnt about being mentored by our cell leader and to also mentor others.  There is no limit to evangelism and I pray that God will keep giving strength and alertness to grasp the right opportunity to do so. Thank God for my cell group and all the people in church. And also my POD prayergroup. It's just so comforting to know that there is someone who will guide and prepare us as to how we are suppose to evangelise.

I don't know how or by what means but I just pray that God will use me to reach out to all my friends, so that I see each and every one of them get saved. I must discipline myself to do QT daily and integrate it into my life.

C'mon Nicole!!!

I think the soccer match on thursday really had everyone at the edge of our seats, or out of our seats to be exact. Cheered till our throats went sore and voices, hoarse. Although we did not win, I think we did not gave up without a good fight and I thought that AC peeps were indeed pressurized by our "Meridian Might". It is so not me to talk about soccer, but I do hope MJ Soccer wins the next match! Actually, I feel really inspired by them and I like how they show sportsmanship even on the verge of losing. We are so special unlike some.